Do you remember the days of your youth when people would ask you what you wanted to be when you grew up? I do....and I remember what I said, too. I met those goals, and left some of them behind. I've often thought of what my answer to the question would be if posed to me now...now that I've seen and become aware of so many more options. I haven't settled on that answer yet.
I do know, however, what I won't be. I won't be several things. I will never be a college student working toward a specific degree, because I've never liked school. Please don't misunderstand. I do enjoy learning, but at my own pace, and in ways other than sitting in class rooms or lectures with boring instructors. I'm not an avid reader, unlike so many of my friends are. I enjoy reading, but only things that interest me, not long books. I will never be a mathmatician, bookkeeper, tax preparer, accountant, or anyone else who works with numbers. We have never been compatible... numbers and I, I mean.
I will never be a race car driver. I abhor speed demon driving, or riding, for that matter. I'm not a terrific passenger, because I'm always jamming my foot on the imaginary brake, or grabbing the bar above the passenger door when driver is flying down the curvy back roads or on the horrendous interstate highways. But, unless I want to stay at home, doing nothing....which I do not, I must endure those harrowing experiences of speed unleashed.
I will never be a window washer or leap from tall buildings with a single bound. I will never climb mountains on foot paths, or rock walls inside buildings or outside of them either. I don't like heights at all. I get dizzy. I won't be a miner or one who explores the beautiful under world of stalactites and stalagmites. I'm a bit claustrophobic. I'll never be a world traveler, though I would consider that should by bank account allow it. I'll never be a clown or a comedienne, although I think it would be fun to be one, I'm not that funny. Besides, clowns often scare people, especially little kids, and that would not be fun.
No, I'll never be any of the above....or a myriad of other things. But, do you know what? I'm not the least bit upset over what I'll never be. I know who and what I am....a very happy wife, a loved daughter, an available mother and a loving Grandmother. I'm completely content being ME...whoever that is at the moment, and I wouldn't change a thing!